Demons live inside me
I cut myself
When they try to speak
The blood seems to silence them
(but only for awhile)
Until the clamor once again
To be heard.

How have I lived this long?
This really is hell
Because I don't understand
Why I'm here.

What sadist's desires
Were fulfilled
When I was brought forth
Into this life?

This should be over 
I'm still here
Why did you get to run away
And leave me holding the bag of shit?

i still remember you
i never forgot you
i never will

Db 23 October 1997